It’s been 7 months and 18 days since we have been walking this path. It’s rocky, it’s uphill and it has taken so many twists and turns we never expected. There has always been a door down the path. We can see it, it is left slightly ajar. As we have been walking this path it seems like the door never gets any closer. Somedays we can see a ray of light coming through it as it opens a little. Other days, all we see is black from the little sliver it is open.
We stand before it now, with branches in the path to the left and right of us. The door, is right in front of us now, still slightly open, but not far. We have been standing here for days now asking, “Which way do we go? Is the door in front of us the one we are supposed to be walking through? Or is this door closing and we need to follow another one of the paths?” We are trying very hard to listen to Him. Not to others around us, many who are saying take another path.
We have been praying, “PLEASE open the door so wide that there is no doubt You want us to keep walking this path, or PLEASE close it so tight that we have no doubt that You want us to walk another path.”
We wait, but we hear nothing yet… just the stillness and quiet of the woods. While we wait, we draw closer to Him. Looking for answers. We do not want to walk this path alone. We do not want to go through a door that is not for us, yet sometimes we want so bad to just shove it open and run through it. Our hearts are saying go, but we hear nothing…. so we wait… and wonder…which way… each day drags into the next and we keep praying, but we hear nothing… there are no road signs, no breeze from one way stronger than the others, no tell tale hint of solution. Only stillness and quiet.
Are we sorry we are on this path. Nope! Do we still want what we have been praying for? YES! with all our hearts. Do we know if that is His plan… no we don’t. So we keep waiting, and praying and loving him while we wait on Him to make His plan clear to us. I hope someday we will understand why this has been so hard, why it has taken so long, and why there is nothing but silence now. But for today we do not. All we can do for today is wait, and trust and love.
Please pray with us for the door. Pray for it to swing so far open that we have no doubts as to what He is asking from us. Or that He closes it completely and then shows us what path to take then. We believe He sent us down this path, we just do not know where it He is leading us.
These are the words of him who is holy and true, who holds the key of David. What he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open. 8 I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.Revelation 3: 7b – 8
