One year ago this morning our son woke up for the first time in our home. I remember walking into the room he was sharing with Elijah for hosting and he was sitting on the bed, bed made and the clothes we had given him to sleep in were neatly folded on the bottom of his bed. I thought, WOW! I wonder if he can teach the others this?
One year later we are becoming a family. It has been a long and painful journey, but not without much joy too.
Did you know that when the Lord decided to grow you it sometimes hurts? Yup it does. But thats okay. He knows best and will He never give us more than we can handle. (shhhh I KNOW this but many times in this last year I was yelling I cant do this anymore! But He showed me I could. This is not about me but about Him.)
We will never be the same family we once were. Some days that makes me sad, but most days I am okay with that. We made it through a VERY hard 24 hours this week and came out on the other side stronger.
We are working on defiance right now. It is a heart issue to us. When we say no, do not do it, and it happens purposely anyway that is defiance. So right this very minute, I am in my bedroom as I am exhausted mentally and emotionally and my dear sweet husband is doing defiance duty. We have given a no for 3 hours and we have been defied. So computer is gone for a week for that first defiance. Waiting to see if he chooses to defy again. Are we getting ANYTHING done on this nice Sunday? NOPE not that you can see but we are working on the heart. And thats okay.
This week we will celebrate Noahs 9th birthday, which was in May but we did not celebrate because of our trip, and Elijahs 12th birthday which is Wednesday. We are hoping to set all things aside and focus on only them for a few hours. I pray for these few hours peace to be in our home. They have given up so much in this last year we really want to make this special for them.
We are still waiting for our approval from USICS to be able to make our next trip date. Its time to begin to think about fund raisers for our next 2 trips, but I am out of ideas, so I am praying the Lord shows us what he wants us to do. He has brought us this far, I am sure He will continue to guide us. We still have to raise about $10,000 to complete this process.
We are trying to get report cards finish and plans for the next school year made. Books bought so I can 100% take the month of July off to refresh.
We hope you all are having a wonderful summer.