Today a strange sense of calm and peace has come over us and the children. We spent much time this weekend talking about “what if” and what will we do “if”…. We talked about many other families who have walked this road before us and had their paths changed, even in the last week, and the faith that they have had to continue to follow the Lord, “no matter what.” About how they followed the Lord, no matter where the Lord lead them, and what would we do “if” the Lord does not lead where we thought he was. We asked the children to pray about what “if” and if they will still be open to the Lords leading somewhere else.
We got some information today, and usually I would be frantic to find out more, why, what, when ….. but today, it’s okay. I am just leaving it in the Lord’s hands, knowing He is walking with us and there is NOTHING we can do except choose to follow him or walk away.
Today, we are choosing to have FAITH and follow Him. Where he is leading us, we honestly do not know anymore, but we all trust Him and have decided to follow. Do we still want with all our hearts our son to come home forever soon? YES! Yet, we also know and have now accepted that may never happen. Does it mean we will walk away from him if that happens? No, just that our role may be different in his life than we had hoped.
Thus, a strange sense of peace and calm has come to our home. One that has not been here in over 7 months. We know it will be “okay” and He is on this journey with us. He will heal our hearts if they are broken, and help us move forward on a new path He may create for us. We believe very soon we will have the answers we have been seeking and the door will be closed, or be thrown wide open. Then we will know where He is leading.
Please continue to pray for us and our son. We believe answers are coming and all our hearts will never be the same.